it just isn't the day for me.
the day started out bad, and it HAD to end bad too.
am I asking too much?
why show the attitude and spoil my day?
you're not happy and i'm not happy, so how? call the police? doesn't solve anything.
and what's wrong with playing with the psp, is it a crime? for goodness sake it's a break, not a lesson.
don't treat us like recruits just because only one or two silly people runied your day.
shouting doesn't scare me, it scares you so don't do it to scare us.
bottomline: you don't give me your respect, i won't show you your respect.
and it's not his fault, its accidental cos THE ARROW DROPPED when he released. screw your pay, dock it then dock it lah, not as if you haven't earned enough from NS with extra bonuses.
money isn't everything, safety is, like you said.
we're just a bunch of students who are just beginners, and you're a semi-pro. why waste your energy getting mad when we're not gifted at it?
we're trying our best you know, and it doesn't help when you always 'wah lau eh tell you how many times' at us.
i'm still gonna see you in 2 weeks time, hopefully you'll change and think about others feelings before yourself.
it's tough for you as its tough for us, so don't make life difficult for us and we'll do the same.
lastly, about the night, i'll just have to compromise with whatever you do, although i'm upset, i'll just have to accept what's coming in from your side, and i don't know if i still can maintain my cool and be very understandable the way things are going, cos i kinda lost it just now. it's saturday leh, not the weekdays or sundays which i can accept.
today ended in a bad note. hope sleep won't too.
i'm out.
Saturday, April 26
Saturday, April 12
updating finally
Its been a long time since I last updated, but with other factors coming in, I don't think I wish to update anymore, because it will be emotional post again. nothing happy ever happens to guanwen nowadays.
Homework is tough, tutorials are being carried out at a fast rate, lectures are hard to understand. But there's nothing I can do about it, except working even harder than before, I guess.
And besides that, other things have happened over these few weeks and they are not good too. Overbursting of emotions and unpredictability to name a few. People tend to change during periods like this, but who can blame them? The stress and expectations are just too hard for them to handle and they find other ways to destress and let out some steam.
All I can say is that I'm not the guanwen I want to be now, not since the start of the second term and I hate it. I'm being more pessimistic than before, becoming emotional more often than usually and get myself annoyed more easily, and contradict myself in the many ways I promised myself never ever to happen.
I'm not me and I don't know how to change in these coming weeks of terror. I don't want to resort to beating and abusing myself in order to make myself change but I don't want to keep it inside me and hide it in my subconscious mind forever, knowing that it'll come back to haunt me when I finally can be in my happy self, but telling someone will make hurt him/her indirectly and they have their own things to worry about besides little old me.
I'm stopping here, I don't want to type and don't know what to type anymore.
Homework is tough, tutorials are being carried out at a fast rate, lectures are hard to understand. But there's nothing I can do about it, except working even harder than before, I guess.
And besides that, other things have happened over these few weeks and they are not good too. Overbursting of emotions and unpredictability to name a few. People tend to change during periods like this, but who can blame them? The stress and expectations are just too hard for them to handle and they find other ways to destress and let out some steam.
All I can say is that I'm not the guanwen I want to be now, not since the start of the second term and I hate it. I'm being more pessimistic than before, becoming emotional more often than usually and get myself annoyed more easily, and contradict myself in the many ways I promised myself never ever to happen.
I'm not me and I don't know how to change in these coming weeks of terror. I don't want to resort to beating and abusing myself in order to make myself change but I don't want to keep it inside me and hide it in my subconscious mind forever, knowing that it'll come back to haunt me when I finally can be in my happy self, but telling someone will make hurt him/her indirectly and they have their own things to worry about besides little old me.
I'm stopping here, I don't want to type and don't know what to type anymore.
Monday, March 24
a failure
a failure, is what I should be called from now on, anyway, I've been failing all my life.
never had I did so badly for an exam, practically failing every single subject being offered to me.
and I don't see the reason why people still can smile and joke around when their results are just as bad.
sometimes I don't even know why I'm still pursuing an education course, when all I'm doing is wasting resources.
and I'm not gonna blame it on the teachers anymore, it doesn't work nor help this way.
retain, leave or stick to the status quo I really don't know;
I need to see some light, even if its just a blink of light rays.
someone please tell me what to do.
never had I did so badly for an exam, practically failing every single subject being offered to me.
and I don't see the reason why people still can smile and joke around when their results are just as bad.
sometimes I don't even know why I'm still pursuing an education course, when all I'm doing is wasting resources.
and I'm not gonna blame it on the teachers anymore, it doesn't work nor help this way.
retain, leave or stick to the status quo I really don't know;
I need to see some light, even if its just a blink of light rays.
someone please tell me what to do.
Sunday, March 23
a sad day; easter
oh my gosh, its been weeks since I last updated, 13 days to be exact.
first of all, HAPPY EASTER SUNDAY to all!
many things have happened for the past 13 days! sis's photo exhibition with the hopeless romantic, project JUMBO, back to school *arghhh!* and archery. details I'll write when I feel like la, very lazy now haha.
well, it was suppose to be a fine day today, but it turned out to be sad for me. And the best part is I don't know why! I guess it should be multiple reasons that led to be a sad guanwen today. I've been thinking AGAIN, even though I should be studying, and I realised many things that I may have done wrongly e.g. scolding the wrong person, expecting too much of others, wanting things to go MY way to other matters such as my nephew getting sick, atrocious CT marks, NOT DOING MY REVISION when I should (esp. when there's one extra day), to lastly not being able to do homework not because I don't want to, but I can't (it really sucks I tell you). And with PTMs approaching this Saturday (which does not help), all I can say is wish me luck lo.
Sometimes I really think I do too much, cause I don't wanna be a slacker, but to expect the same fair share back is a wishful part of my thinking; i guess.
To the extent that I even think I think too much now, snap out of it guanwen! DO IT!
oh wells, at least the big match's later,it'll take my mind off these matters; for now that is.
first of all, HAPPY EASTER SUNDAY to all!
many things have happened for the past 13 days! sis's photo exhibition with the hopeless romantic, project JUMBO, back to school *arghhh!* and archery. details I'll write when I feel like la, very lazy now haha.
well, it was suppose to be a fine day today, but it turned out to be sad for me. And the best part is I don't know why! I guess it should be multiple reasons that led to be a sad guanwen today. I've been thinking AGAIN, even though I should be studying, and I realised many things that I may have done wrongly e.g. scolding the wrong person, expecting too much of others, wanting things to go MY way to other matters such as my nephew getting sick, atrocious CT marks, NOT DOING MY REVISION when I should (esp. when there's one extra day), to lastly not being able to do homework not because I don't want to, but I can't (it really sucks I tell you). And with PTMs approaching this Saturday (which does not help), all I can say is wish me luck lo.
Sometimes I really think I do too much, cause I don't wanna be a slacker, but to expect the same fair share back is a wishful part of my thinking; i guess.
To the extent that I even think I think too much now, snap out of it guanwen! DO IT!
oh wells, at least the big match's later,it'll take my mind off these matters; for now that is.
Monday, March 10
my day
guanwen is a really happy boy today!
you should know why.
shall not elaborate more.
looking forward to tomorrow!
a better day I hope.
you should know why.
shall not elaborate more.
looking forward to tomorrow!
a better day I hope.
Wednesday, March 5
tribute
A Tribute to this special someone on his 18th birthday, my best friend, Mok Kai Chuen.
A picture speaks a thousand words.
6 pictures... ... you should get my idea.
Saturday, March 1
19 feb
February 29, a day that only appears once every four years. a leap day to be exact.
It is said that this day allows women to propose to men and the men can't refuse to it. A special day whereby women take charge. the men take a break for the day, and be obliged to do what a girl asks of you.
The previous leap year happened in 2004 and 29/2/2004 was just any other normal day in the 2004 calender. But somehow this year it turned out different, much more significant events happened; pledges, confessions, escapes, security lapses, public apologies, mugging etc.
A emotional ride it was for me today, especially in the morning. but all things ended well. and I'm happy, for now. until the common tests arrive on Monday.
until then, back to studying, studying and more studying; nothing else should bother me now.
Let's just hope that 29/2/2012 will be even be much better than today, for me and you.
It is said that this day allows women to propose to men and the men can't refuse to it. A special day whereby women take charge. the men take a break for the day, and be obliged to do what a girl asks of you.
The previous leap year happened in 2004 and 29/2/2004 was just any other normal day in the 2004 calender. But somehow this year it turned out different, much more significant events happened; pledges, confessions, escapes, security lapses, public apologies, mugging etc.
A emotional ride it was for me today, especially in the morning. but all things ended well. and I'm happy, for now. until the common tests arrive on Monday.
until then, back to studying, studying and more studying; nothing else should bother me now.
Let's just hope that 29/2/2012 will be even be much better than today, for me and you.
Sunday, February 24
its 4 mins to 11 so I better be quick.
Orientation 02: EXOTHERMIC has finally ended, after 4 days of HARD WORK, screaming and shouting at people to hurry up and stuff, cycling at East Coast Park to make sure everything is going on well there and finally losing my voice.
I would like to express my greatest gratitude to the organising comm and the facils for the hard work involved, especially to SOLAS facils. We WON best house, totally unexpected. but EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED! *now where did I hear that from? haha*
now that this is over, back to reality. common test's in a week's time, haven't much started on revision, so shoot me if you can, really. I can already anticipate the no. of U I'm gonna get. Jon Ma says I'm confirm fail my CTs, actually my whole class, but I don't blame him, at the rate we're going, it's DDAY.
thank you for your support these 4 days, never failing to put a smile on my face. *you know who you are* haha.
Orientation 02: EXOTHERMIC has finally ended, after 4 days of HARD WORK, screaming and shouting at people to hurry up and stuff, cycling at East Coast Park to make sure everything is going on well there and finally losing my voice.
I would like to express my greatest gratitude to the organising comm and the facils for the hard work involved, especially to SOLAS facils. We WON best house, totally unexpected. but EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED! *now where did I hear that from? haha*
now that this is over, back to reality. common test's in a week's time, haven't much started on revision, so shoot me if you can, really. I can already anticipate the no. of U I'm gonna get. Jon Ma says I'm confirm fail my CTs, actually my whole class, but I don't blame him, at the rate we're going, it's DDAY.
thank you for your support these 4 days, never failing to put a smile on my face. *you know who you are* haha.
Thursday, February 21
Youth Olympics
CONGRATULATIONS Singapore; for winning the right to host the inaugural Youth Olympics in 2010! Well Done and let's hope that 14-16 August 2010 will be 3 good days indeed.
To all facils and especially the Orientation 2 committee, we're halfway there, 2 more days and its over! Hang on; Endure and Enjoy!
To all facils and especially the Orientation 2 committee, we're halfway there, 2 more days and its over! Hang on; Endure and Enjoy!
Sunday, February 17
unexpected
words cannot describe how I feel right now. all in all, I'm HAPPY and so should you (:
I'll ALWAYS remember that matter, for as long as I live.
very long p.s. well done, for deleting that photo.
Although it's too surreal, it did happen, didn't it?
I'll ALWAYS remember that matter, for as long as I live.
very long p.s. well done, for deleting that photo.
Although it's too surreal, it did happen, didn't it?
Wednesday, February 6
cny
this year's chinese new year can be summarised in one word: disappointing.
today is 除夕, so we're suppose to have 团圆饭, and I was expecting the same as always over the past few years, but this year apparently everyone decided not to come to my house, except one of my uncles. its the eve of the new year, and everyone is supposed to gather in someone's house and have a meal together, even simple customs like this are ignored. disappointing but true. even though we're gonna meet at my aunt's house on 初一, that's not the point, cause it wouldn't be a 团圆饭, which defeats the whole purpose, even though we're together.many people have been asking me why is this blog so emotional, like there's no happy thoughts or feelings inside me or something. actually there are, but there's nothing really significant that really made me feel truly happy inside my heart, except the past few saturdays, but other then that, not really.
I sort of had been told by this fengshui-fortune teller when I was in Taiwan in dec 06 that I have a very lucky life, and that the next year (which is 2007) to 小心陶花运, which means beware of girls, meaning don't get too close to them cause it meant bad luck. and looking back, she bluffed me. 2007 didn't really brought me close to any girl for that matter, let alone a relationship.
2008 may just be a special year for me, where I may just be falling in love with someone, although the vision seems blurry and unclear right now.
one word I'm guilty of nowadays is obsession, or what the oxford dictionary defines as the state of being obsessed. obsess means means occupying the thoughts of continually. and I get the feeling that i'm being obsessive. enough said, i know its bad so i'm not continuing.
I don't seem to be in the festive mood that I'm suppose to be in CNY, for this year alone. my friends agreed too. i don't know if it's the stress of the fact of being in an 'A' level year or just that being an age like this just brings the mood down low. anyway for now, I'm just not feeling it, the right way.
back to basic reality for me, the one thing I'm deprived of: the television. and watch it I will.
Sunday, February 3
Sometimes I really have to hand in to my dad, I must really learnt from him about this : not to take your emotions home. my dad works as a lecturer in ITE, with many students of different backgrounds around the country. Always, when he reaches home, he's a happy man, he does his usual stuff like reading the newspaper and occasionally watching the tv which I'm deprived of. Usually if you're working in ITE, you will have a certain amount of stress with the students and other matters, but my dad ain't that kind of person, he doesn't even talk about these matters at home.
And so I ask him, " why don't get you get stressed up and talk about it at home, I mean teaching in ITE surely brings about these problems?"
and he just said this, " why should I get stressed up over these things at home? A home is a place to rest and relax, not a place to rant and complain about my students, so I choose not to bring these emotions home."
and I really respect him for that, being professional to the point where he can even control or 'time' his emotions to not let it get the better of him.
this week has been a emotional roller coaster for me, moods changing as frequent as the unpredictable weather. and i hope that I will change this habit, for the better, and not let the fatigue and stress make me 感情用事 again.
get a hold of yourself, guanwen, get a hold of yourself, now. anger won't help.
To: the hopeless romantic.
THANK YOU THANK YOU so much my hopeless romantic partner for writing and giving me the postcard on wednesday, although it took me quite a while to understand it, I did and understood the true meaning of the lyrics written on it. a beautiful song it is. a beautiful song.
I'M A BEAUTIFUL SEED, I'M A BEAUTIFUL SEED! haha. thank you once again.
I can understand why you're feeling what you are now. I read his messages to you, of which they were not deleted. Honestly, he was charismatic and creative, not to mention caring. and it will seem quite difficult to let go, even for me. The messages were cute and lovely, not the ones people would usually receive, not even mine. And I'm jealous, of him and disappointed at myself for not being able to do much, as much as I've assumed I have, to help you let go. I thought I've done alot, but it all seems so far away now. The smiles and laughters didn't really help much, am I right?
I've failed in making people truly happy, and I'm sorry about it. I know I can never be like him, or even better, and after reading those messages, I think it's even worse. I blame myself for not being able to make you truly happy, like what I've promised myself to do so. I want you to be happy, because if you're not, I won't be too.
Forgive me, hopeless romantic, for not really helping you, as much as I've wished.
From: the other hopeless romantic.
And so I ask him, " why don't get you get stressed up and talk about it at home, I mean teaching in ITE surely brings about these problems?"
and he just said this, " why should I get stressed up over these things at home? A home is a place to rest and relax, not a place to rant and complain about my students, so I choose not to bring these emotions home."
and I really respect him for that, being professional to the point where he can even control or 'time' his emotions to not let it get the better of him.
this week has been a emotional roller coaster for me, moods changing as frequent as the unpredictable weather. and i hope that I will change this habit, for the better, and not let the fatigue and stress make me 感情用事 again.
get a hold of yourself, guanwen, get a hold of yourself, now. anger won't help.
To: the hopeless romantic.
THANK YOU THANK YOU so much my hopeless romantic partner for writing and giving me the postcard on wednesday, although it took me quite a while to understand it, I did and understood the true meaning of the lyrics written on it. a beautiful song it is. a beautiful song.
I'M A BEAUTIFUL SEED, I'M A BEAUTIFUL SEED! haha. thank you once again.
I can understand why you're feeling what you are now. I read his messages to you, of which they were not deleted. Honestly, he was charismatic and creative, not to mention caring. and it will seem quite difficult to let go, even for me. The messages were cute and lovely, not the ones people would usually receive, not even mine. And I'm jealous, of him and disappointed at myself for not being able to do much, as much as I've assumed I have, to help you let go. I thought I've done alot, but it all seems so far away now. The smiles and laughters didn't really help much, am I right?
I've failed in making people truly happy, and I'm sorry about it. I know I can never be like him, or even better, and after reading those messages, I think it's even worse. I blame myself for not being able to make you truly happy, like what I've promised myself to do so. I want you to be happy, because if you're not, I won't be too.
Forgive me, hopeless romantic, for not really helping you, as much as I've wished.
From: the other hopeless romantic.
Monday, January 28
major reflection needed
i can't believe i'm saying this but i really have to. they really have a screwed up believe system which i can't seem to comprehend.
i may sound like a girl but
guys are bastards, real idiotic bastards in love.
i have 2 friends, one of which is a really close friend whereby both of them have been and still are victims of love. these guys apparently thought nothing happened and just broke up with them. i just can't see why guys like to give stupid retarded excuses/reasons to break up with the girl. if you wanna break up with the girl. just tell her straight, don't beat around the bush.
and dude, if you guys have been dating for two years already, you just can't say that 'i think i'm not ready for a relationship' and think that you can break up with her just like that. it freaking doesn't work this way, trust me.
maybe i'm not in the position to say anything, but the act shows how irresponsible, unreliable, unworthy, despicable, disgusting & selfish the guy really is, daring to say something as absurd as that to a girl whom he dated for two years. enough said, your loss, loser.
which brings me now to my really close friend. you should know who you are and please forgive me if i say this but i have to, cause it just so really pisses me off so bad.
dude, you can't hide forever you know that. you just can't say that nothing actually happened because it did, and face the fact, you did have something special going on with her didn't you? you cannot, and i mean really cannot deny the fact that it's the schoolwork and location that's driving you away from her, because if it is, it just shows how immature your time management skills is. if the feeling's gone, just tell her, don't act as if nothing happened when it did, cause as far as i know, you guys did enjoy each others' company. and even if you still deny it, fair enough, i can't comment cause i'm not there to see what actually is going on. just don't give the wrong signal to the girl to make her think otherwise, because she will be trapped in your love autopsy, for a long long time, trying to fight it but not forget it, the happy memories of that so-called relationship.
selfish as you guys may be, you're still in the minds of these girls, and i hope that these two girls will be able to swallow the pain wholeheartedly, leaving no traces to atone, i know its hard, i know its tough, time will heal eventually like many say, but it's really how you wanna heal, be it fast or slow it's up to you, time can only be time, pasting away second by second, your heart will be the deciding factor. there is hope in every heartbeat, tiny as it seems, and my hope to you is as big as how tiny you want it to seem, for matters of relationships i cannot help, and that is only you who can heal yourself.
so guys, if you're not mature enough as your age suggests, don't get into a relationship!
i'm really proud of you for taking it this far, pushing yourself bit by bit, acting strong in front of others, mixed feelings underneath. happy for you that you're moving forward, not really thinking of the past. wished that i could share the burden, but we know it's pretty much impossible. may the lord be with you always in whatever decision you decide to make.
you showed me and asked me about the photo that day, and i hope my answer of reassurance is sufficient for you, for you can only decide for yourself when is the right moment to do so, to finally let it go, officially, bearing no hate nor love to it, just really, letting it go.
and i'll be there always standing by you, waiting patiently for the good news to come.
i may sound like a girl but
guys are bastards, real idiotic bastards in love.
i have 2 friends, one of which is a really close friend whereby both of them have been and still are victims of love. these guys apparently thought nothing happened and just broke up with them. i just can't see why guys like to give stupid retarded excuses/reasons to break up with the girl. if you wanna break up with the girl. just tell her straight, don't beat around the bush.
and dude, if you guys have been dating for two years already, you just can't say that 'i think i'm not ready for a relationship' and think that you can break up with her just like that. it freaking doesn't work this way, trust me.
maybe i'm not in the position to say anything, but the act shows how irresponsible, unreliable, unworthy, despicable, disgusting & selfish the guy really is, daring to say something as absurd as that to a girl whom he dated for two years. enough said, your loss, loser.
which brings me now to my really close friend. you should know who you are and please forgive me if i say this but i have to, cause it just so really pisses me off so bad.
dude, you can't hide forever you know that. you just can't say that nothing actually happened because it did, and face the fact, you did have something special going on with her didn't you? you cannot, and i mean really cannot deny the fact that it's the schoolwork and location that's driving you away from her, because if it is, it just shows how immature your time management skills is. if the feeling's gone, just tell her, don't act as if nothing happened when it did, cause as far as i know, you guys did enjoy each others' company. and even if you still deny it, fair enough, i can't comment cause i'm not there to see what actually is going on. just don't give the wrong signal to the girl to make her think otherwise, because she will be trapped in your love autopsy, for a long long time, trying to fight it but not forget it, the happy memories of that so-called relationship.
selfish as you guys may be, you're still in the minds of these girls, and i hope that these two girls will be able to swallow the pain wholeheartedly, leaving no traces to atone, i know its hard, i know its tough, time will heal eventually like many say, but it's really how you wanna heal, be it fast or slow it's up to you, time can only be time, pasting away second by second, your heart will be the deciding factor. there is hope in every heartbeat, tiny as it seems, and my hope to you is as big as how tiny you want it to seem, for matters of relationships i cannot help, and that is only you who can heal yourself.
so guys, if you're not mature enough as your age suggests, don't get into a relationship!
i'm really proud of you for taking it this far, pushing yourself bit by bit, acting strong in front of others, mixed feelings underneath. happy for you that you're moving forward, not really thinking of the past. wished that i could share the burden, but we know it's pretty much impossible. may the lord be with you always in whatever decision you decide to make.
you showed me and asked me about the photo that day, and i hope my answer of reassurance is sufficient for you, for you can only decide for yourself when is the right moment to do so, to finally let it go, officially, bearing no hate nor love to it, just really, letting it go.
and i'll be there always standing by you, waiting patiently for the good news to come.
Sunday, January 27
later la
i'll just update my post tomorrow cause i'm really tired right now. homework is killing me, not to mention math ca on friday. sorry marie.
Friday, January 18
time
time really flies, looking back at my last post,it was 4th Jan and its already 18th Jan today. maybe I'm too busy with catching up with schoolwork that I'm too tired to update haha. To summarise all my thoughts now,
well done O1 committee for a job fulfilled!
1T03 is a great class, despite having 4 guys and 13 girls;
evadne is an excellent facil partner!
IG03 outing!
jamming session was shiok guys! (:
michael in the 'circle of trust';
O1 facils outing?
a new me? a new image that my classmates are talking about; 'everything new'
the unbelievable studious side of me this past two weeks!
thanks marie! (:
and I'm gonna continue becoming studious hopefully with marie continuing to be my study partner;
the potential upcoming stress from rockafella iv, orientation 2 and environmental week;
and lastly, tomorrow's COFFEE TREAT!
thanks marie! x2
OLE! SHIOK! haha.
well done O1 committee for a job fulfilled!
1T03 is a great class, despite having 4 guys and 13 girls;
evadne is an excellent facil partner!
IG03 outing!
jamming session was shiok guys! (:
michael in the 'circle of trust';
O1 facils outing?
a new me? a new image that my classmates are talking about; 'everything new'
the unbelievable studious side of me this past two weeks!
thanks marie! (:
and I'm gonna continue becoming studious hopefully with marie continuing to be my study partner;
the potential upcoming stress from rockafella iv, orientation 2 and environmental week;
and lastly, tomorrow's COFFEE TREAT!
thanks marie! x2
OLE! SHIOK! haha.
Friday, January 4
IG03!
I'm very tired, actually extremely tired, and I love my IG03! Even though I was almost MIA-ing the whole time to help with games and logistics leaving my partner evadne all alone with them, they actually still bothered to remember my name and talk to me. Thank you guys for treating me and evadne dinner today! really appreciated it, even though it made my throat worse but who cares? haha. really hope to see you guys again anywhere in cj or even be in 1t03, so we can be your facil again for 3 days. anyway, we'll leave it to fate la. like what evadne said, IG03 is very enthu and I love them loads! take care guys and see you soon!
Tuesday, January 1
happy new year
and 2007 has finally came to a close, with the start of 2008.
time really flies. at this time last year i was still this ignorant sec 4 kid who can't seem to grow up and now I'm this fine young man standing tall. haha. lame la.
2007 ended well i guess, as compared with the mid-year which was really bad. the holidays proved to be a good time to relieve some stress out of me which was on-going during the whole school term, and friendships were kindled or rekindled through the many camps or retreats I'll attended. although I barely made it into J2, I guess life's like that and I'm glad to have ended it in a good note, rather than a bad one.
I want to personally thank 4 people who really helped and supported me in whatever way possible.
Jonathan Ma; thank you!
Edwin; thank you!
Kai Chuen; thank you!
and finally Marie; thank you!
2007 wouldn't be so exciting without you guys. thank you again! so much!
meanwhile, to my new year resolution for 2008, it's simple, and only two words that most will agree upon:
BE HAPPY.
time really flies. at this time last year i was still this ignorant sec 4 kid who can't seem to grow up and now I'm this fine young man standing tall. haha. lame la.
2007 ended well i guess, as compared with the mid-year which was really bad. the holidays proved to be a good time to relieve some stress out of me which was on-going during the whole school term, and friendships were kindled or rekindled through the many camps or retreats I'll attended. although I barely made it into J2, I guess life's like that and I'm glad to have ended it in a good note, rather than a bad one.
I want to personally thank 4 people who really helped and supported me in whatever way possible.
Jonathan Ma; thank you!
Edwin; thank you!
Kai Chuen; thank you!
and finally Marie; thank you!
2007 wouldn't be so exciting without you guys. thank you again! so much!
meanwhile, to my new year resolution for 2008, it's simple, and only two words that most will agree upon:
BE HAPPY.
Sunday, December 30
life as it is
life is just so unpredictable. one day you can be happy, one day you can be sad. you may see your good friend today, but tomorrow he may be gone forever and never come back. there's no limits to how things can possibly get or be and it is also this reason that life can be so complicated or exciting/thrilling to some.
if many things are not going your way, you can do many things; break down and cry, bitch about it to a friend or just keep it to yourself. but it is the choices like this we make that affects us and the people around us.
if you break down and cry, you just break down and cry, friends and family will console you and stuff but it's really up to you if you wanna get back up on your two feet and move forward.
if you bitch it to a friend, of course your friend will ask you if you're alright and being yourself and it's up to you how you wanna feel. people will start worrying which is good in the sense that people actually care for you, and you can count on their support.
if you just keep it to yourself, you can do it, but past experiences tell me it's hard to do it, and if you do, you have excellent anger management abilities. you would just want to tell someone about it and let it off your chest, and once you do that, it will feel absolutely light-hearted.
that is two ways though which really helps in relieving stress and anger which I've tried and actually works. the first way it's best to do it near the sea or just somewhere no one can see you. raise your arms and just scream or shout! it works and if you don't try you never know how it feels. the second way is easier but really depends on how you look at it. just imagine how lucky and fortunate you are to actually be stressed and angry about these things; kids in Africa don't have the luxury to think about what you are feeling right now. they worry about other more important things like their basic necessities such as clean water and carbo food to survive. one sentence to summarise this; do not take simple things for granted and be appreciative for the many things (be it happy, sad, angry, disappointing) happening around you.
and if things are going your way, good for you! and hope or pray things continue to go your way.
maybe life is just god's test to everyone; whether we are able to face challenges and endure hardships to be able to proceed to the after-life, which no one knows until they're dead.
life can never be good without our family and friends, and I'm glad they're there to support me in any way possible.
act justly, serve truly and walk humbly (with your god)
and finally one word to describe life; bittersweet.
if many things are not going your way, you can do many things; break down and cry, bitch about it to a friend or just keep it to yourself. but it is the choices like this we make that affects us and the people around us.
if you break down and cry, you just break down and cry, friends and family will console you and stuff but it's really up to you if you wanna get back up on your two feet and move forward.
if you bitch it to a friend, of course your friend will ask you if you're alright and being yourself and it's up to you how you wanna feel. people will start worrying which is good in the sense that people actually care for you, and you can count on their support.
if you just keep it to yourself, you can do it, but past experiences tell me it's hard to do it, and if you do, you have excellent anger management abilities. you would just want to tell someone about it and let it off your chest, and once you do that, it will feel absolutely light-hearted.
that is two ways though which really helps in relieving stress and anger which I've tried and actually works. the first way it's best to do it near the sea or just somewhere no one can see you. raise your arms and just scream or shout! it works and if you don't try you never know how it feels. the second way is easier but really depends on how you look at it. just imagine how lucky and fortunate you are to actually be stressed and angry about these things; kids in Africa don't have the luxury to think about what you are feeling right now. they worry about other more important things like their basic necessities such as clean water and carbo food to survive. one sentence to summarise this; do not take simple things for granted and be appreciative for the many things (be it happy, sad, angry, disappointing) happening around you.
and if things are going your way, good for you! and hope or pray things continue to go your way.
maybe life is just god's test to everyone; whether we are able to face challenges and endure hardships to be able to proceed to the after-life, which no one knows until they're dead.
life can never be good without our family and friends, and I'm glad they're there to support me in any way possible.
act justly, serve truly and walk humbly (with your god)
and finally one word to describe life; bittersweet.
Tuesday, December 25
love actually
Just watched love actually on DVD. Still so in love with the show even though I've watched it like more than 10 times. the plot itself is simple yet touching, the scenes are what words can never describe and the song selection is just perfect.
And just because it's Christmas, I would like to quote something from the movie and it's really reflective:
General opinion started to make out that we live in a world of hatred and greed, but I don't see that. Seems to me that love is everywhere. Often it's not particularly dignified or newsworthy but it's always there. Fathers and sons, mothers and daughters, husbands and wives, boyfriends, girlfriends, old friends. When the planes hit the twin towers, as far as I know none of the phone calls from the people on board were messages of hate or revenge, they were all messages of love. If you look for it, I've got a sneaky feeling you'll find that love actually is all around.
I totally agree la. to the hopelessly romantic and sucker for romantic flicks me, find someone and stop dreaming!
Merry Christmas marie and kaichuen! don't be in santa's naughty list okay? haha :)
And just because it's Christmas, I would like to quote something from the movie and it's really reflective:
General opinion started to make out that we live in a world of hatred and greed, but I don't see that. Seems to me that love is everywhere. Often it's not particularly dignified or newsworthy but it's always there. Fathers and sons, mothers and daughters, husbands and wives, boyfriends, girlfriends, old friends. When the planes hit the twin towers, as far as I know none of the phone calls from the people on board were messages of hate or revenge, they were all messages of love. If you look for it, I've got a sneaky feeling you'll find that love actually is all around.
I totally agree la. to the hopelessly romantic and sucker for romantic flicks me, find someone and stop dreaming!
Merry Christmas marie and kaichuen! don't be in santa's naughty list okay? haha :)
Monday, December 24
just a thought
just a thought... ...
ever wished you could say things like "I'm going to crystal jade for a snack!" or "Ben & Jerry's ice-cream is ridiculously cheap!" or would you just love to smack them right in the face and say "what the hell is your problem?"
for people like me who can only thrive on $2 gui peng (chicken rice) for a meal 3 times a day, fast food is considered as a luxury to me, crystal jade outings will be like once every 2 years and ben & jerry's ice-cream's like omg i don't wanna say even though the ice-cream is superb. and i'm not even talking about one fullerton lunch or ah yat abalone restuarant okay.
typical conversation between a rich bastard and a rich bitch:
rich bastard: so where did you eat for lunch?
rich bitch: tcc again la, like again. fish & co. and swensens are like totally out, too cheap for me.
rich bastard: chey, today i eat crystal jade the $xxx++ okay?
rich bitch: now the cab fare more expensive, you still can afford it or not?
rich bastard: of course! it's only $3 extra plus that 35% more cab fare only what. easy peasy!
(and i thought public transport was sucking up my allowance)
well that's life. it's always unfair. live it!
ever wished you could say things like "I'm going to crystal jade for a snack!" or "Ben & Jerry's ice-cream is ridiculously cheap!" or would you just love to smack them right in the face and say "what the hell is your problem?"
for people like me who can only thrive on $2 gui peng (chicken rice) for a meal 3 times a day, fast food is considered as a luxury to me, crystal jade outings will be like once every 2 years and ben & jerry's ice-cream's like omg i don't wanna say even though the ice-cream is superb. and i'm not even talking about one fullerton lunch or ah yat abalone restuarant okay.
typical conversation between a rich bastard and a rich bitch:
rich bastard: so where did you eat for lunch?
rich bitch: tcc again la, like again. fish & co. and swensens are like totally out, too cheap for me.
rich bastard: chey, today i eat crystal jade the $xxx++ okay?
rich bitch: now the cab fare more expensive, you still can afford it or not?
rich bastard: of course! it's only $3 extra plus that 35% more cab fare only what. easy peasy!
(and i thought public transport was sucking up my allowance)
well that's life. it's always unfair. live it!
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