One thing I've learnt is that when you get to the point where there's nothing much for your brain to function in a productive way (even though physically it may be unproductive), you start to think in a degenerative way.
i.e. nothing to do, think about stupid and silly things.
Emotions start getting the better of you, and naturally it turns out to be unpleasant kinds.
Hate, Jealousy and Selfishness. 3 somewhat simple adjectives with huge complications to us.
There's no one time when you have really nothing to do, you just stone, because no one stones. When you see someone stone, they're actually thinking about something, preferably something unpleasant. Unless there are things in your head, which probably means there's some brain juices to squeeze, you think bad. And that is really dumb. Why does the human brain work in this silly way to instill fear and hopelessness in me? Especially since when I have nothing to do?
I really don't know how my brain works but all I think of are the 3 adjectives I mentioned earlier.
Only when I fully occupied with stuff, no matter productive or unproductive work, do I make my brain function properly.
Let's face it, my brain is seriously degrading by the day, knowledge may even be spilling out of my brain and with not much things to do at the moment, my hopeless thoughts will only get worse.
Besides, everyone knows I'm lazy. I can't get my ass up to do some proper, learn something, read something, and watching TV doesn't help the brain think, only follow. I guess this post is more of a rant and a signal for me to wake up and reaffirm my existence in life.
Until then its time for some life reflection in me.
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