Wow, it seems that I finally understand how faded memories can be brought back to me from my unconscious mind in just a split of a second, and its not the pictures, but the words itself.
You see, while just posting 2 days ago, well I thought maybe its time for a change, a change that would refresh my thoughts and the memories that I wished didn't happen to me. I decided then to delete every single tag on my tagboard. Going to the website and logging in to my account, this is it, delete everything and start over again, hopefully like a new person or being. As I clicked on the select all button, I don't know why I did it but I just scrolled down the website and browsed through all the tag that was present.
And this was where the Nightmare started. As I read each tag, pictures, feelings and emotions started getting to my head. I started to be happy and sad, angry and frustrated, emotional and emotionless. I really thought I can go through with it after what seems like a good old long time for me but till now it appears not.
All the doing something else, pre-ocuppying yourself with shit and the legendary "they say time heals everything" are just for people who couldn't care less anymore, and I'm just not that guy. I care too much for Christ sake.
be a man guanwen, face up and do what you should do.
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