major reflection needed

i can't believe i'm saying this but i really have to. they really have a screwed up believe system which i can't seem to comprehend.

i may sound like a girl but

guys are bastards, real idiotic bastards in love.

i have 2 friends, one of which is a really close friend whereby both of them have been and still are victims of love. these guys apparently thought nothing happened and just broke up with them. i just can't see why guys like to give stupid retarded excuses/reasons to break up with the girl. if you wanna break up with the girl. just tell her straight, don't beat around the bush.

and dude, if you guys have been dating for two years already, you just can't say that 'i think i'm not ready for a relationship' and think that you can break up with her just like that. it freaking doesn't work this way, trust me.

maybe i'm not in the position to say anything, but the act shows how irresponsible, unreliable, unworthy, despicable, disgusting & selfish the guy really is, daring to say something as absurd as that to a girl whom he dated for two years. enough said, your loss, loser.

which brings me now to my really close friend. you should know who you are and please forgive me if i say this but i have to, cause it just so really pisses me off so bad.

dude, you can't hide forever you know that. you just can't say that nothing actually happened because it did, and face the fact, you did have something special going on with her didn't you? you cannot, and i mean really cannot deny the fact that it's the schoolwork and location that's driving you away from her, because if it is, it just shows how immature your time management skills is. if the feeling's gone, just tell her, don't act as if nothing happened when it did, cause as far as i know, you guys did enjoy each others' company. and even if you still deny it, fair enough, i can't comment cause i'm not there to see what actually is going on. just don't give the wrong signal to the girl to make her think otherwise, because she will be trapped in your love autopsy, for a long long time, trying to fight it but not forget it, the happy memories of that so-called relationship.

selfish as you guys may be, you're still in the minds of these girls, and i hope that these two girls will be able to swallow the pain wholeheartedly, leaving no traces to atone, i know its hard, i know its tough, time will heal eventually like many say, but it's really how you wanna heal, be it fast or slow it's up to you, time can only be time, pasting away second by second, your heart will be the deciding factor. there is hope in every heartbeat, tiny as it seems, and my hope to you is as big as how tiny you want it to seem, for matters of relationships i cannot help, and that is only you who can heal yourself.

so guys, if you're not mature enough as your age suggests, don't get into a relationship!

i'm really proud of you for taking it this far, pushing yourself bit by bit, acting strong in front of others, mixed feelings underneath. happy for you that you're moving forward, not really thinking of the past. wished that i could share the burden, but we know it's pretty much impossible. may the lord be with you always in whatever decision you decide to make.

you showed me and asked me about the photo that day, and i hope my answer of reassurance is sufficient for you, for you can only decide for yourself when is the right moment to do so, to finally let it go, officially, bearing no hate nor love to it, just really, letting it go.

and i'll be there always standing by you, waiting patiently for the good news to come.

later la

i'll just update my post tomorrow cause i'm really tired right now. homework is killing me, not to mention math ca on friday. sorry marie.

time

time really flies, looking back at my last post,it was 4th Jan and its already 18th Jan today. maybe I'm too busy with catching up with schoolwork that I'm too tired to update haha. To summarise all my thoughts now,

well done O1 committee for a job fulfilled!

1T03 is a great class, despite having 4 guys and 13 girls;

evadne is an excellent facil partner!

IG03 outing!

jamming session was shiok guys! (:

michael in the 'circle of trust';

O1 facils outing?

a new me? a new image that my classmates are talking about; 'everything new'

the unbelievable studious side of me this past two weeks!
thanks marie! (:

and I'm gonna continue becoming studious hopefully with marie continuing to be my study partner;

the potential upcoming stress from rockafella iv, orientation 2 and environmental week;

and lastly, tomorrow's COFFEE TREAT!
thanks marie! x2
OLE! SHIOK! haha.

IG03!

I'm very tired, actually extremely tired, and I love my IG03! Even though I was almost MIA-ing the whole time to help with games and logistics leaving my partner evadne all alone with them, they actually still bothered to remember my name and talk to me. Thank you guys for treating me and evadne dinner today! really appreciated it, even though it made my throat worse but who cares? haha. really hope to see you guys again anywhere in cj or even be in 1t03, so we can be your facil again for 3 days. anyway, we'll leave it to fate la. like what evadne said, IG03 is very enthu and I love them loads! take care guys and see you soon!

happy new year

and 2007 has finally came to a close, with the start of 2008.

time really flies. at this time last year i was still this ignorant sec 4 kid who can't seem to grow up and now I'm this fine young man standing tall. haha. lame la.

2007 ended well i guess, as compared with the mid-year which was really bad. the holidays proved to be a good time to relieve some stress out of me which was on-going during the whole school term, and friendships were kindled or rekindled through the many camps or retreats I'll attended. although I barely made it into J2, I guess life's like that and I'm glad to have ended it in a good note, rather than a bad one.

I want to personally thank 4 people who really helped and supported me in whatever way possible.

Jonathan Ma; thank you!
Edwin; thank you!
Kai Chuen; thank you!
and finally Marie; thank you!

2007 wouldn't be so exciting without you guys. thank you again! so much!

meanwhile, to my new year resolution for 2008, it's simple, and only two words that most will agree upon:

BE HAPPY.