Sunday, December 30

life as it is

life is just so unpredictable. one day you can be happy, one day you can be sad. you may see your good friend today, but tomorrow he may be gone forever and never come back. there's no limits to how things can possibly get or be and it is also this reason that life can be so complicated or exciting/thrilling to some.

if many things are not going your way, you can do many things; break down and cry, bitch about it to a friend or just keep it to yourself. but it is the choices like this we make that affects us and the people around us.

if you break down and cry, you just break down and cry, friends and family will console you and stuff but it's really up to you if you wanna get back up on your two feet and move forward.

if you bitch it to a friend, of course your friend will ask you if you're alright and being yourself and it's up to you how you wanna feel. people will start worrying which is good in the sense that people actually care for you, and you can count on their support.

if you just keep it to yourself, you can do it, but past experiences tell me it's hard to do it, and if you do, you have excellent anger management abilities. you would just want to tell someone about it and let it off your chest, and once you do that, it will feel absolutely light-hearted.

that is two ways though which really helps in relieving stress and anger which I've tried and actually works. the first way it's best to do it near the sea or just somewhere no one can see you. raise your arms and just scream or shout! it works and if you don't try you never know how it feels. the second way is easier but really depends on how you look at it. just imagine how lucky and fortunate you are to actually be stressed and angry about these things; kids in Africa don't have the luxury to think about what you are feeling right now. they worry about other more important things like their basic necessities such as clean water and carbo food to survive. one sentence to summarise this; do not take simple things for granted and be appreciative for the many things (be it happy, sad, angry, disappointing) happening around you.

and if things are going your way, good for you! and hope or pray things continue to go your way.

maybe life is just god's test to everyone; whether we are able to face challenges and endure hardships to be able to proceed to the after-life, which no one knows until they're dead.

life can never be good without our family and friends, and I'm glad they're there to support me in any way possible.

act justly, serve truly and walk humbly (with your god)

and finally one word to describe life; bittersweet.

Tuesday, December 25

love actually

Just watched love actually on DVD. Still so in love with the show even though I've watched it like more than 10 times. the plot itself is simple yet touching, the scenes are what words can never describe and the song selection is just perfect.

And just because it's Christmas, I would like to quote something from the movie and it's really reflective:

General opinion started to make out that we live in a world of hatred and greed, but I don't see that. Seems to me that love is everywhere. Often it's not particularly dignified or newsworthy but it's always there. Fathers and sons, mothers and daughters, husbands and wives, boyfriends, girlfriends, old friends. When the planes hit the twin towers, as far as I know none of the phone calls from the people on board were messages of hate or revenge, they were all messages of love. If you look for it, I've got a sneaky feeling you'll find that love actually is all around.

I totally agree la. to the hopelessly romantic and sucker for romantic flicks me, find someone and stop dreaming!

Merry Christmas marie and kaichuen! don't be in santa's naughty list okay? haha :)

Monday, December 24

just a thought

just a thought... ...

ever wished you could say things like "I'm going to crystal jade for a snack!" or "Ben & Jerry's ice-cream is ridiculously cheap!" or would you just love to smack them right in the face and say "what the hell is your problem?"

for people like me who can only thrive on $2 gui peng (chicken rice) for a meal 3 times a day, fast food is considered as a luxury to me, crystal jade outings will be like once every 2 years and ben & jerry's ice-cream's like omg i don't wanna say even though the ice-cream is superb. and i'm not even talking about one fullerton lunch or ah yat abalone restuarant okay.

typical conversation between a rich bastard and a rich bitch:

rich bastard: so where did you eat for lunch?
rich bitch: tcc again la, like again. fish & co. and swensens are like totally out, too cheap for me.
rich bastard: chey, today i eat crystal jade the $xxx++ okay?
rich bitch: now the cab fare more expensive, you still can afford it or not?
rich bastard: of course! it's only $3 extra plus that 35% more cab fare only what. easy peasy!
(and i thought public transport was sucking up my allowance)

well that's life. it's always unfair. live it!

Friday, December 21

life as it is now

haven't been updating for a very long time, but no one ever visits my blog, except that Marie does now. and it is also because of her I'm actually posting. so if there's anyone reading this, thank Marie.

many things happened this holiday. APLYC 8 retreat, working at SITEX, APLYC 8, holiday to KL and finally council retreat. i have to say many of these experiences shown me the world in one way or another. i can proudly say that money is seriously not easy to earn. imagine standing at an average of 12 hours a day for 4 days with an estimated amount of $180 and you'll know why, at least I've got 2 Lenovo shirts free. but its the experience that counts, so no hard feelings. APLYC 8 was simply fabulous. "Many Lives, One Mission" was the theme, and helping my Alma mater is one thing I truly enjoy doing. 12 countries all came to Singapore for this lasallian congress. share, care and reflect was the aim, and we the organising team influenced them and achieved it. many friends were made from all walks of life , friendships rekindled and even though I was the only one from my class of 2006 to help out, I didn't felt left out, but more close to my juniors like never before. Working for the secretariat at the secretariat shop was fun, with all the rushing to meet deadlines proved to be manageable, except we slept at around 4-5a.m. everyday. Xian Yi, Kendrick, Kenny Yap, Edmund, Lennon & Richard; thank you for the cheap thrill gossips, bitching sessions and support during that whole week, and it was an eye-opener to how open you guys are. Fiona Xie laminates, WHAT THE MOM swearing and that dance instructor. hahahahahaha. finally i would to affirm the hong kong delegates, especially to 4 of them; Felix, Nikki, Christy & Johnson for the very late night conversations. it was fun and enjoyable talking to you guys about stuff i would never dreamt asking. and talking to you guys improved my cantonese alot, so thank you! hope I can go hong kong soon. KL was really a unforgettable trip, besides it being a bad experience, it really reflects on how cruel life can be and the ugly side of people. the hotel manager arrogant, taxi drivers obnoxious and the chinatown retailers money suckers to describe them a little. there were nice people, but the bad things overshadowed the good in that city. the malays thought that they were kings or sultans, but its their country, and they do have that pro-malay policies all around the country, so you can't blame them for believing they are bigshots. enough said about KL before my thoughts get distracted. council retreat was really much more enjoyable that i imagined. it really bonded the 29 of us closer together and we had fun. haha the games especially, super duper fun and hilarious. thanks games comm for those dirty yet fun games. haha group 3 we came in 2nd! well done! mrs leong session was my favourite. affirming, sharing and reconcile was the activity and we were suppose to 1 to 1 talk with anyone. haha it was enjoyable talking to kai chuen, clare, jocelyn, nadine and ya hui! thanks for sharing. later there was bbq. I was the 'chef' and cooked alot of food. apparently pork and otah was the most popular food with the teachers and jason asking for them constantly and marie the otah which was very well done. hahaha. mr pang's session was rather reflective and I really loved the foot thing. haha I think my foot was nice :) and I rather miss the late night talks with kai chuen. just to let marie know I'm not emo okay? yes my posts are rather emotional, but that was the past. now I'm quite happy with the way things are now, knowing you and council mates made me feel alive again haha. omg that sounds corny. Satisfied I am right now. will update soon! (: