sweet 17

it may seem like a typical ordinary day to many, but for people like me and xinghao it ain't, cause its our birthday!!! we had been countdowning to this very particular day for at least a month or so. so when this day actually came, we were quite excited. today seems to be disappointing yet not disappointing. the sad thing thing was i didn't really went out today, or so it seems. but i did watch a movie with ed and ken, which was in a way, not bad. but i can't ask for more yea, if no one wants to ask me out, what can i do? force them to go out with me? NONO. it will look too desperate in a way, like you've no friends. anyway i've already spent quite a few years like that, so no harm done to have one more extra. but the thing that really surprised me is that people actually remembered me and xinghao's birthday. i mean i've always looked at myself as being someone ordinary and plain, usually thinking no one would really care about me, but this proved wrong, or maybe i'm too simple-minded. but i'm really grateful to those guys who remembered my birthday ever so unlikely. thank you. many thoughts have run through my mind this day, friendships, hardships and even funships. how i wish everything could be turned around, to change the unchangeable, but these things will never happen though. ok enough with the bullshit then, happy birthday to those who are born on the 3rd of september!! and one other thing; i hope true love really exists, not true lust. lame....