life is just so unpredictable. one day you can be happy, one day you can be sad. you may see your good friend today, but tomorrow he may be gone forever and never come back. there's no limits to how things can possibly get or be and it is also this reason that life can be so complicated or exciting/thrilling to some.
if many things are not going your way, you can do many things; break down and cry, bitch about it to a friend or just keep it to yourself. but it is the choices like this we make that affects us and the people around us.
if you break down and cry, you just break down and cry, friends and family will console you and stuff but it's really up to you if you wanna get back up on your two feet and move forward.
if you bitch it to a friend, of course your friend will ask you if you're alright and being yourself and it's up to you how you wanna feel. people will start worrying which is good in the sense that people actually care for you, and you can count on their support.
if you just keep it to yourself, you can do it, but past experiences tell me it's hard to do it, and if you do, you have excellent anger management abilities. you would just want to tell someone about it and let it off your chest, and once you do that, it will feel absolutely light-hearted.
that is two ways though which really helps in relieving stress and anger which I've tried and actually works. the first way it's best to do it near the sea or just somewhere no one can see you. raise your arms and just scream or shout! it works and if you don't try you never know how it feels. the second way is easier but really depends on how you look at it. just imagine how lucky and fortunate you are to actually be stressed and angry about these things; kids in Africa don't have the luxury to think about what you are feeling right now. they worry about other more important things like their basic necessities such as clean water and carbo food to survive. one sentence to summarise this; do not take simple things for granted and be appreciative for the many things (be it happy, sad, angry, disappointing) happening around you.
and if things are going your way, good for you! and hope or pray things continue to go your way.
maybe life is just god's test to everyone; whether we are able to face challenges and endure hardships to be able to proceed to the after-life, which no one knows until they're dead.
life can never be good without our family and friends, and I'm glad they're there to support me in any way possible.
act justly, serve truly and walk humbly (with your god)
and finally one word to describe life; bittersweet.
Sunday, December 30
Tuesday, December 25
love actually
Just watched love actually on DVD. Still so in love with the show even though I've watched it like more than 10 times. the plot itself is simple yet touching, the scenes are what words can never describe and the song selection is just perfect.
And just because it's Christmas, I would like to quote something from the movie and it's really reflective:
General opinion started to make out that we live in a world of hatred and greed, but I don't see that. Seems to me that love is everywhere. Often it's not particularly dignified or newsworthy but it's always there. Fathers and sons, mothers and daughters, husbands and wives, boyfriends, girlfriends, old friends. When the planes hit the twin towers, as far as I know none of the phone calls from the people on board were messages of hate or revenge, they were all messages of love. If you look for it, I've got a sneaky feeling you'll find that love actually is all around.
I totally agree la. to the hopelessly romantic and sucker for romantic flicks me, find someone and stop dreaming!
Merry Christmas marie and kaichuen! don't be in santa's naughty list okay? haha :)
And just because it's Christmas, I would like to quote something from the movie and it's really reflective:
General opinion started to make out that we live in a world of hatred and greed, but I don't see that. Seems to me that love is everywhere. Often it's not particularly dignified or newsworthy but it's always there. Fathers and sons, mothers and daughters, husbands and wives, boyfriends, girlfriends, old friends. When the planes hit the twin towers, as far as I know none of the phone calls from the people on board were messages of hate or revenge, they were all messages of love. If you look for it, I've got a sneaky feeling you'll find that love actually is all around.
I totally agree la. to the hopelessly romantic and sucker for romantic flicks me, find someone and stop dreaming!
Merry Christmas marie and kaichuen! don't be in santa's naughty list okay? haha :)
Monday, December 24
just a thought
just a thought... ...
ever wished you could say things like "I'm going to crystal jade for a snack!" or "Ben & Jerry's ice-cream is ridiculously cheap!" or would you just love to smack them right in the face and say "what the hell is your problem?"
for people like me who can only thrive on $2 gui peng (chicken rice) for a meal 3 times a day, fast food is considered as a luxury to me, crystal jade outings will be like once every 2 years and ben & jerry's ice-cream's like omg i don't wanna say even though the ice-cream is superb. and i'm not even talking about one fullerton lunch or ah yat abalone restuarant okay.
typical conversation between a rich bastard and a rich bitch:
rich bastard: so where did you eat for lunch?
rich bitch: tcc again la, like again. fish & co. and swensens are like totally out, too cheap for me.
rich bastard: chey, today i eat crystal jade the $xxx++ okay?
rich bitch: now the cab fare more expensive, you still can afford it or not?
rich bastard: of course! it's only $3 extra plus that 35% more cab fare only what. easy peasy!
(and i thought public transport was sucking up my allowance)
well that's life. it's always unfair. live it!
ever wished you could say things like "I'm going to crystal jade for a snack!" or "Ben & Jerry's ice-cream is ridiculously cheap!" or would you just love to smack them right in the face and say "what the hell is your problem?"
for people like me who can only thrive on $2 gui peng (chicken rice) for a meal 3 times a day, fast food is considered as a luxury to me, crystal jade outings will be like once every 2 years and ben & jerry's ice-cream's like omg i don't wanna say even though the ice-cream is superb. and i'm not even talking about one fullerton lunch or ah yat abalone restuarant okay.
typical conversation between a rich bastard and a rich bitch:
rich bastard: so where did you eat for lunch?
rich bitch: tcc again la, like again. fish & co. and swensens are like totally out, too cheap for me.
rich bastard: chey, today i eat crystal jade the $xxx++ okay?
rich bitch: now the cab fare more expensive, you still can afford it or not?
rich bastard: of course! it's only $3 extra plus that 35% more cab fare only what. easy peasy!
(and i thought public transport was sucking up my allowance)
well that's life. it's always unfair. live it!
Friday, December 21
life as it is now
haven't been updating for a very long time, but no one ever visits my blog, except that Marie does now. and it is also because of her I'm actually posting. so if there's anyone reading this, thank Marie.
many things happened this holiday. APLYC 8 retreat, working at SITEX, APLYC 8, holiday to KL and finally council retreat. i have to say many of these experiences shown me the world in one way or another. i can proudly say that money is seriously not easy to earn. imagine standing at an average of 12 hours a day for 4 days with an estimated amount of $180 and you'll know why, at least I've got 2 Lenovo shirts free. but its the experience that counts, so no hard feelings. APLYC 8 was simply fabulous. "Many Lives, One Mission" was the theme, and helping my Alma mater is one thing I truly enjoy doing. 12 countries all came to Singapore for this lasallian congress. share, care and reflect was the aim, and we the organising team influenced them and achieved it. many friends were made from all walks of life , friendships rekindled and even though I was the only one from my class of 2006 to help out, I didn't felt left out, but more close to my juniors like never before. Working for the secretariat at the secretariat shop was fun, with all the rushing to meet deadlines proved to be manageable, except we slept at around 4-5a.m. everyday. Xian Yi, Kendrick, Kenny Yap, Edmund, Lennon & Richard; thank you for the cheap thrill gossips, bitching sessions and support during that whole week, and it was an eye-opener to how open you guys are. Fiona Xie laminates, WHAT THE MOM swearing and that dance instructor. hahahahahaha. finally i would to affirm the hong kong delegates, especially to 4 of them; Felix, Nikki, Christy & Johnson for the very late night conversations. it was fun and enjoyable talking to you guys about stuff i would never dreamt asking. and talking to you guys improved my cantonese alot, so thank you! hope I can go hong kong soon. KL was really a unforgettable trip, besides it being a bad experience, it really reflects on how cruel life can be and the ugly side of people. the hotel manager arrogant, taxi drivers obnoxious and the chinatown retailers money suckers to describe them a little. there were nice people, but the bad things overshadowed the good in that city. the malays thought that they were kings or sultans, but its their country, and they do have that pro-malay policies all around the country, so you can't blame them for believing they are bigshots. enough said about KL before my thoughts get distracted. council retreat was really much more enjoyable that i imagined. it really bonded the 29 of us closer together and we had fun. haha the games especially, super duper fun and hilarious. thanks games comm for those dirty yet fun games. haha group 3 we came in 2nd! well done! mrs leong session was my favourite. affirming, sharing and reconcile was the activity and we were suppose to 1 to 1 talk with anyone. haha it was enjoyable talking to kai chuen, clare, jocelyn, nadine and ya hui! thanks for sharing. later there was bbq. I was the 'chef' and cooked alot of food. apparently pork and otah was the most popular food with the teachers and jason asking for them constantly and marie the otah which was very well done. hahaha. mr pang's session was rather reflective and I really loved the foot thing. haha I think my foot was nice :) and I rather miss the late night talks with kai chuen. just to let marie know I'm not emo okay? yes my posts are rather emotional, but that was the past. now I'm quite happy with the way things are now, knowing you and council mates made me feel alive again haha. omg that sounds corny. Satisfied I am right now. will update soon! (:
many things happened this holiday. APLYC 8 retreat, working at SITEX, APLYC 8, holiday to KL and finally council retreat. i have to say many of these experiences shown me the world in one way or another. i can proudly say that money is seriously not easy to earn. imagine standing at an average of 12 hours a day for 4 days with an estimated amount of $180 and you'll know why, at least I've got 2 Lenovo shirts free. but its the experience that counts, so no hard feelings. APLYC 8 was simply fabulous. "Many Lives, One Mission" was the theme, and helping my Alma mater is one thing I truly enjoy doing. 12 countries all came to Singapore for this lasallian congress. share, care and reflect was the aim, and we the organising team influenced them and achieved it. many friends were made from all walks of life , friendships rekindled and even though I was the only one from my class of 2006 to help out, I didn't felt left out, but more close to my juniors like never before. Working for the secretariat at the secretariat shop was fun, with all the rushing to meet deadlines proved to be manageable, except we slept at around 4-5a.m. everyday. Xian Yi, Kendrick, Kenny Yap, Edmund, Lennon & Richard; thank you for the cheap thrill gossips, bitching sessions and support during that whole week, and it was an eye-opener to how open you guys are. Fiona Xie laminates, WHAT THE MOM swearing and that dance instructor. hahahahahaha. finally i would to affirm the hong kong delegates, especially to 4 of them; Felix, Nikki, Christy & Johnson for the very late night conversations. it was fun and enjoyable talking to you guys about stuff i would never dreamt asking. and talking to you guys improved my cantonese alot, so thank you! hope I can go hong kong soon. KL was really a unforgettable trip, besides it being a bad experience, it really reflects on how cruel life can be and the ugly side of people. the hotel manager arrogant, taxi drivers obnoxious and the chinatown retailers money suckers to describe them a little. there were nice people, but the bad things overshadowed the good in that city. the malays thought that they were kings or sultans, but its their country, and they do have that pro-malay policies all around the country, so you can't blame them for believing they are bigshots. enough said about KL before my thoughts get distracted. council retreat was really much more enjoyable that i imagined. it really bonded the 29 of us closer together and we had fun. haha the games especially, super duper fun and hilarious. thanks games comm for those dirty yet fun games. haha group 3 we came in 2nd! well done! mrs leong session was my favourite. affirming, sharing and reconcile was the activity and we were suppose to 1 to 1 talk with anyone. haha it was enjoyable talking to kai chuen, clare, jocelyn, nadine and ya hui! thanks for sharing. later there was bbq. I was the 'chef' and cooked alot of food. apparently pork and otah was the most popular food with the teachers and jason asking for them constantly and marie the otah which was very well done. hahaha. mr pang's session was rather reflective and I really loved the foot thing. haha I think my foot was nice :) and I rather miss the late night talks with kai chuen. just to let marie know I'm not emo okay? yes my posts are rather emotional, but that was the past. now I'm quite happy with the way things are now, knowing you and council mates made me feel alive again haha. omg that sounds corny. Satisfied I am right now. will update soon! (:
Thursday, November 15
true love?
does true love ever exist?
my answer will definitely be yes, be it to a small or large extent.
many people think that the girl/guy they 'like' are their true love. but is this true? or a mere deception that many choose to believe? let actions speak for themselves.
sometimes people tend to underlook things/take things for granted and ignore the 'gems' around them and care for the 'dirt'. maybe i just think people don't get the meaning of love itself, foolishly accepting the opposite sex into relationships that they're forged since being friends, or even thinking dating is 'cool' so i must do it. cliche.
have you ever wish you were that knight is shining armor or that lovable princess waiting to be with your cinderalla or your prince charming? how lovely if it ever happens to anyone of us. but the fact is, it is totally the opposite, you can't get your prince charming or your cinderalla, it hardly ever happens, not everyone is that gorgeous looking and perfect, not even you, brad pitt.
but it sure feels good to see it once in a while, haha.
my answer will definitely be yes, be it to a small or large extent.
many people think that the girl/guy they 'like' are their true love. but is this true? or a mere deception that many choose to believe? let actions speak for themselves.
sometimes people tend to underlook things/take things for granted and ignore the 'gems' around them and care for the 'dirt'. maybe i just think people don't get the meaning of love itself, foolishly accepting the opposite sex into relationships that they're forged since being friends, or even thinking dating is 'cool' so i must do it. cliche.
have you ever wish you were that knight is shining armor or that lovable princess waiting to be with your cinderalla or your prince charming? how lovely if it ever happens to anyone of us. but the fact is, it is totally the opposite, you can't get your prince charming or your cinderalla, it hardly ever happens, not everyone is that gorgeous looking and perfect, not even you, brad pitt.
but it sure feels good to see it once in a while, haha.
Saturday, November 3
Monday, September 3
sweet 17
it may seem like a typical ordinary day to many, but for people like me and xinghao it ain't, cause its our birthday!!! we had been countdowning to this very particular day for at least a month or so. so when this day actually came, we were quite excited. today seems to be disappointing yet not disappointing. the sad thing thing was i didn't really went out today, or so it seems. but i did watch a movie with ed and ken, which was in a way, not bad. but i can't ask for more yea, if no one wants to ask me out, what can i do? force them to go out with me? NONO. it will look too desperate in a way, like you've no friends. anyway i've already spent quite a few years like that, so no harm done to have one more extra. but the thing that really surprised me is that people actually remembered me and xinghao's birthday. i mean i've always looked at myself as being someone ordinary and plain, usually thinking no one would really care about me, but this proved wrong, or maybe i'm too simple-minded. but i'm really grateful to those guys who remembered my birthday ever so unlikely. thank you. many thoughts have run through my mind this day, friendships, hardships and even funships. how i wish everything could be turned around, to change the unchangeable, but these things will never happen though. ok enough with the bullshit then, happy birthday to those who are born on the 3rd of september!! and one other thing; i hope true love really exists, not true lust. lame....
Monday, July 16
installation
today's the installation of the 33th student council. part of the crew, got the badge. everything went as according to plan. friends came to congratulate and the councillors really enjoyed themselves. and we all became cam-whores for the night. total high-ness.
one more thing: i'm finally a student councillor! the badge, the look, everything!
some photos taken from the day:
one more thing: i'm finally a student councillor! the badge, the look, everything!
some photos taken from the day:
Saturday, April 28
new lease of life here
I've just deleted all my older posts in the blog cause I just feel this blog needs a new lease of life. School isn't that great for me at all, failing almost every test and not being able to communicate with my peers the way I want it to happen. But life is just so unfair and I have to live with it. You can't change the world, but the world can change you.
I feel I'm kind of disliked in class. I get the feeling everyone in class wants to avoid me, and I don't know why. Is it because I'm too kaypoh, or I'm too offensive in the way I speak, or is it I'm just not good to talk with? I DON'T KNOW! I have always wanted to be the talkable type, where I can make people laugh with everything I say, like weihao for instance, but I know I'm not up to it. I just can't be stupid and lame all the time, but I want to be popular.
To be popular, you must have either of these 'qualities'. 1-be pretty or handsome & 2-be the clown/joker and make people laugh. I'm neither of those, so I guess I can't be popular. What am I talking about? Why do I have to live in people's perception? Forget about all the dumb fallacies, just focus on yourself. I am the centre of this universe, not earth, not even the sun. I must get out of my comfort zone, or nothing's going to change. Who am I kidding? You have to be pretty or handsome to be popular, no doubt about it. And I'm not.
I just don't believe what some of my friends are saying. They say I'm look handsome, potential eyecandy material. But who are they kidding? I have two eyes to see for myself. Of course I know if I look good or not, who doesn't?
Honestly I'm LOST. Lost the meaning of life. I really see no need for my existence in this world, its like I'm just a normal average human being on the way to selling my soul for the survival of the country's economic growth rate. I don't want to do these things. I just want to happy. Is this so hard to ask for?
I feel I'm kind of disliked in class. I get the feeling everyone in class wants to avoid me, and I don't know why. Is it because I'm too kaypoh, or I'm too offensive in the way I speak, or is it I'm just not good to talk with? I DON'T KNOW! I have always wanted to be the talkable type, where I can make people laugh with everything I say, like weihao for instance, but I know I'm not up to it. I just can't be stupid and lame all the time, but I want to be popular.
To be popular, you must have either of these 'qualities'. 1-be pretty or handsome & 2-be the clown/joker and make people laugh. I'm neither of those, so I guess I can't be popular. What am I talking about? Why do I have to live in people's perception? Forget about all the dumb fallacies, just focus on yourself. I am the centre of this universe, not earth, not even the sun. I must get out of my comfort zone, or nothing's going to change. Who am I kidding? You have to be pretty or handsome to be popular, no doubt about it. And I'm not.
I just don't believe what some of my friends are saying. They say I'm look handsome, potential eyecandy material. But who are they kidding? I have two eyes to see for myself. Of course I know if I look good or not, who doesn't?
Honestly I'm LOST. Lost the meaning of life. I really see no need for my existence in this world, its like I'm just a normal average human being on the way to selling my soul for the survival of the country's economic growth rate. I don't want to do these things. I just want to happy. Is this so hard to ask for?
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